Darn I'll have to completely redesign it then... its hard to JUST change the colors but thats ok... its not too dark though? like the writing is all light as if our writing lights up the darkness of this world... if you wish to think it that way. Anyway babe I miss you... Dude man me and lyle have had an awesome couple of days. We finally opened up to eachother with a bunch of things. Things we've been somewhat holding back I guess until now. Lyle has truely always really been my best friend. I know of no one else that has treated me so well. I've realized that we are so much alike in ways I never expected cause I didn't know about it. He is the only one that has not ever judged or made fun of me... I now realize that he is my only best friend I've had that I really haven't been just a follower of and plus he is my oldest friend. Its about frickin time we talked about these things. We both have been somewhat afraid of growing apart but even though he moved away we still managed to hang out miraculously. And another thing I had no clue about was his amazing faith in god. His faith is soooo much like mine its amazing... somehow through completely opposite ways of learning about god we have came to all the same conclusions about god. Not one time last night that we talked about god did we disagree on an opinion. its truely amazing cause I've never asked about his veiws cause I was afraid he lost his faith somewhere down the line. but he told me that he got sick of going to churches all his life and them telling him who to be. how to dress and obligating that he go to church. He was completely turned off. So he quit trying to find churches shortly a few years after his parents... kinda similar to me but where I went was to other people and Zoë. He sought after god in solitude and creation. He said he would hike to the top of a mountain and look up at the stars and ponder about god and the universe. He said it started out like... He hiked all day feeling rather alone then he was thinking and realized how much he isn't alone that god was right there. He was looking at the stars one night and thinking bout space and stuff and then started thinking "ya know what how can church turn me off to god? they cant tell me who he is! I can find him right here looking at his beauty." And from then on he has been looking for the truth in god through his solitude. He says those are his greatest moments with god. So anyway we told eachother all our veiws on god and the christian faith and what it has become... Like all our beliefs are so parallel. I don't get how!!! Its so cool!!!

So anyway like he told me about how much he thought you and I are like soul mates and perfect for eachother. That made me so happy coming from him. I never knew so many of his thoughts and how much the coincide with mine. He told me that he brags about my guitar playing ability to his friends all the time because he thinks I'm better than anyone he has heard before. This was a really huge shock to me too cause He is VERY picky about music. And to know that he likes my music is a huge compliment to me. Also like I played some of my songs for him... and he heard me sing and told me that had an amazing voice and he wasn't kidding he was serious. He told me that he believes I compare with some of his favorite bands in that I was just as good of a singer as say Maynard James Keenan!!! who I beleive to be one of the most amazing and origional singers ever. Anyway so in conclusion since me and him talked for problably 6 hours strait. I am so happy to know I will have a true lifelong freind besides you. like you are enough for me of course babe but I am so happy to have him as a true best friend... We are going hiking together more and I'm teaching him to play bass and all kinds of stuff. Its all so really cool. Anyway I'm beat cause we just went back to selleck today and hiked back to our favorite discovery we ever made back in selleck... Our favorite secret canyon spot on taylor creek. Anyway babe life is beautifull babe!

There is so much more to tell you about that I can't wait to tell you.

Hey babe.... what do you think of this... do you like the name???

So this will be the blog of Elena Goberna Hidalgo...

This is the first official disolved post.